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binary_sunsetOof, it's been exactly one month since my last post. Oops. I hope you haven't forgotten me.
But anyway, just thought I'd update you about the fic in this post. And I know most of you aren't in Captive Prince fandom, but It's My Blog and I Can Post What I Want.
I told myself that I would post the fic to AO3 once I had 5 chapters completed. If it follows my loose-outline-thing, it's going to be an absolute Slow Burn beast, but 5 felt like a good amount of padding to start with. I'm planning to post it on Fridays since I get out of work early and I'll have the time to read and edit before sending it off into the ether. I've also commissioned a bit of artwork from fellow Yu-Gi-Oh fan and problematic fav ghostteaart. The illustration is meant to go with the first chapter, so I might actually have to wait until it's finished to post (which is fine with me! I'm terrified!).
I had to do some plane travel over the weekend for my birthday, so getting to hang out in an airport and just chug away has actually been pretty good for my productivity. It has been... a bit awkward to write some of the more sexually explicit stuff in public, but I do realise that almost no one is actually going to be reading over my shoulder.
But good lord, it is so much more difficult to write fan fiction based on a book than a TV show or movie. The original author's prose is so evocative and his plotting and dialogue are so tight. Granted. Pacat had been working on his story for years and had time to edit it (it was posted to livejournal in 2009, self published in 2013, then picked up by Penguin, with each iteration coming with an opportunity to polish it). Meanwhile I'm posting my polished first draft and publishing as I go to keep up the momentum and get feedback from my audience (hopefully).
I feel like I'm not doing this book that I love justice, and that makes me very anxious. A good friend of mine is a mental health councilor and has accurately identified my issues with imposter syndrome. I'm trying to manage it, but it's hard.
So yeah, things are going well. But to my fellow fan fiction writers, do you have strategies for managing these types of emotions? Do you experience them as well? Anything helps!
Oh! And the fic has a name now! The initials are BAtE, which is how I'll be referring to it until The Grand Reveal.
But anyway, just thought I'd update you about the fic in this post. And I know most of you aren't in Captive Prince fandom, but It's My Blog and I Can Post What I Want.
I told myself that I would post the fic to AO3 once I had 5 chapters completed. If it follows my loose-outline-thing, it's going to be an absolute Slow Burn beast, but 5 felt like a good amount of padding to start with. I'm planning to post it on Fridays since I get out of work early and I'll have the time to read and edit before sending it off into the ether. I've also commissioned a bit of artwork from fellow Yu-Gi-Oh fan and problematic fav ghostteaart. The illustration is meant to go with the first chapter, so I might actually have to wait until it's finished to post (which is fine with me! I'm terrified!).
I had to do some plane travel over the weekend for my birthday, so getting to hang out in an airport and just chug away has actually been pretty good for my productivity. It has been... a bit awkward to write some of the more sexually explicit stuff in public, but I do realise that almost no one is actually going to be reading over my shoulder.
But good lord, it is so much more difficult to write fan fiction based on a book than a TV show or movie. The original author's prose is so evocative and his plotting and dialogue are so tight. Granted. Pacat had been working on his story for years and had time to edit it (it was posted to livejournal in 2009, self published in 2013, then picked up by Penguin, with each iteration coming with an opportunity to polish it). Meanwhile I'm posting my polished first draft and publishing as I go to keep up the momentum and get feedback from my audience (hopefully).
I feel like I'm not doing this book that I love justice, and that makes me very anxious. A good friend of mine is a mental health councilor and has accurately identified my issues with imposter syndrome. I'm trying to manage it, but it's hard.
So yeah, things are going well. But to my fellow fan fiction writers, do you have strategies for managing these types of emotions? Do you experience them as well? Anything helps!
Oh! And the fic has a name now! The initials are BAtE, which is how I'll be referring to it until The Grand Reveal.
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And yes. Book fandoms are the only ones where I sometimes put a disclaimer about the prose style not matching... and it's the one where I can actually baffle readers that have known me a long time with CERTAIN authors when it comes to guessing games.
(Getting a comment from my beta of "are you sure you wrote this without being possessed by Carroll" was a high point one year.)
I am wishing you ALL the luck!
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I hear you about these anxieties, man. Really keeps me from doing something about that Horla fanfic thing I've got sitting here for months now, because I absolutely cannot grasp the tone of that era. The original is written in French; I only know a German translation, but wrote that thinggie in English. It's sure a disaster, haha.
Then there is my absolut favourite (childhood/youth) book, written in German and I read it in German. The tone is really, absolutely timeless but old-sounding, unique and I'd never dare to write fanfic about it in German, not happening. But I'm having a grand time writing for it in English, so that helps. :)
Lately I re-read some of my old Bible slash stories I wrote more than ten years ago, and I really disliked a lot of things. But I'm not above clicking the edit button over at AO3 and just do it better this time, and re-write these parts.
Looks like I have three strategies: a) write it but keep it, b) write in a different language, try an unusual POV, and c) re-write it.
Hopefully you'll work out your insecurities and yay for coming this far!!