Jun. 29th, 2024 09:26 pm
Longfic Update: Argh!
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binary_sunsetWelp, it's been an interesting few months. Figured it's time to dust off this blog again.
What have I been up to? Well, if you've been following my AO3, you'll notice that I posted some new Baldur's Gate 3 fics in *checks notes* April, I guess? Geez, I could've sworn I just posted those.
Anyway, if you're not privy to the Sunset Deep Lore, I can't say I blame you. I lost my job back in February (on Valentine's Day no less!) less than a week after my grandfather suddenly passed away and I had to catch a last-minute flight to be with my family.
Despite temendous efforts to the contrary, I haven't been able to get a job since then so it's been, uh. Rough. I guess the good news is that it gave me time to focus on classes and get my associates degree with honours.
But I'm constantly kicking myself for not getting farther with my bigger writing projects. I guess it shouldn't be that weird, since even though I have a lot of time, much of it is spent stressing about money and applying for jobs and pulling my hair out. Like, I'm allowed to be exhausted during this extremely stressful point in my life, and yet I still feel bad for not having the energy or drive to work on my fan fics (or the original novel that I'm hypothetically chipping away at). I really need to accept that it's okay to be stressed the fuck out.
And yet I'm also frustrated because I know that I, generally, am not very happy when I'm working a job either. My seasonal depression gets significantly worse when I have to roll out of bed before sunrise and spend time with people who never seem to like me very much. So I feel extra guilty that I'm not getting things done when the weather is nice and I feel energised.
I don't know, man. I'm doing my best.
(If for some reason you do feel like helping me out, please consider tipping me over on commiss.io. I have enough savings to live off of until I can find a new job, but I would really appreciate the support right now.)
What have I been up to? Well, if you've been following my AO3, you'll notice that I posted some new Baldur's Gate 3 fics in *checks notes* April, I guess? Geez, I could've sworn I just posted those.
Anyway, if you're not privy to the Sunset Deep Lore, I can't say I blame you. I lost my job back in February (on Valentine's Day no less!) less than a week after my grandfather suddenly passed away and I had to catch a last-minute flight to be with my family.
Despite temendous efforts to the contrary, I haven't been able to get a job since then so it's been, uh. Rough. I guess the good news is that it gave me time to focus on classes and get my associates degree with honours.
But I'm constantly kicking myself for not getting farther with my bigger writing projects. I guess it shouldn't be that weird, since even though I have a lot of time, much of it is spent stressing about money and applying for jobs and pulling my hair out. Like, I'm allowed to be exhausted during this extremely stressful point in my life, and yet I still feel bad for not having the energy or drive to work on my fan fics (or the original novel that I'm hypothetically chipping away at). I really need to accept that it's okay to be stressed the fuck out.
And yet I'm also frustrated because I know that I, generally, am not very happy when I'm working a job either. My seasonal depression gets significantly worse when I have to roll out of bed before sunrise and spend time with people who never seem to like me very much. So I feel extra guilty that I'm not getting things done when the weather is nice and I feel energised.
I don't know, man. I'm doing my best.
(If for some reason you do feel like helping me out, please consider tipping me over on commiss.io. I have enough savings to live off of until I can find a new job, but I would really appreciate the support right now.)
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So I feel extra guilty that I'm not getting things done when the weather is nice and I feel energised. - I know that! I'm just glad it's raining at the moment, is all I say. ;)
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Funny enough, my job search actually started looking up shortly after posting this, so maybe talking about it unfucked something in the universe lol.
Haha, I get it. Although I do recommend taking a little walk once it stops raining. I am loathe to admit this, but it does help.